Secret Of Secrets !

A new day with new dreams on eyes. Like every single day I wake up early in the morning. As usual I went out of my room and became fresh. I was feeling little bit uncomfortable with my lower abdominal area. But it was OK for me because I thought it was happening because of the chatpat that I had had with my little siblings hiding from mum. I did not tell about my pain to mum. I went to the kitchen and drank some hot water. I felt some relief. Our new academic session had just started .I was in grade 10  so it was little bit pressure to us regarding our S.E.E. So we had to do lots of notes and home work since starting of our classes. I was in rush to finishe my work so I sat on the chair and started work.

It was about 8 o'clock my little niece came to me and asked to help her to make braids of her hair. I almost had completed my work so I went with  her outside in the Aagan,

 made her braids and made my owns also. Suddenly I felt little bit wet and sticky in my vaginal part. I went to washroom and looked. It was all red  in my underwear and thighs. I was known about mensuration but was not ready for it. I had seen  my sister and sister in laws in the horrible pain during their periods which they had to face. I was like ,"God I am not ready yet. I won't be able to bear that pain." Then I called my mom and told her about the blood. She told me not to worry but I could see her in tension. She told me not to come out. She went to my room and make the bed on the floor. She asked my brother to hide so that I can went to my room. She took me to the room and strictly forbade me to come out of the room. I wasn't even allowed to talk with my brothers. Mom told me to take bath and change the clothes. I did so and came to the room. I went into a deep thought. Those superstition and taboos,oops! I felt totally bad for myself. The little princess of my mom and the craziest flower like little sister of my brothers now is impure. I'm no more the star of their eyes. Now I'm grown up. She had strictly told my brothers not to talk and go in front of me. I couldn't see them for 3 days. Then she came to me gave sanitary pads and hot water. My sister in law told me to check the flow of blood and hygiene. She suggested me to wash the vaginal part timely.

Though the restriction of my mum, my brothers  came to me time to time to check me. They were worried about me. They didn't feel shy to talk about periods. They were asking about my pain and we're asking if I needed some painkillers. I feel so blessed to have such brothers. I didn't feel much pain during my first period.

To all sisters like me,

Its  just the natural process. Mensuration doesnot  mean to sin. No girl become impure because of mensuration. God has gifted this special capacity to us to enjoy the  special feeling of being mother,feel the every single breathe of little angles like us in our womb for 9 months. God knows no man can bear the pain of periods so God blessed us with this magical capacity.

To every individual, I want to say that mensuration is just the outgoing of Waste materials from everybody in the form of blood. No girl become impure because of mensuration. We are being pure not impure. Why to feel Shy to talk about mensuration? Why do be ashamed if a male went to buy a sanitary pads? Let's change our thoughts and change the society. Let's's talk about mensuration. Change starts from own so let's change ourselves.

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#period_talks 

#be_positive

By Kabita Paudel